Its a New Year!!!

Well, new day come with a resolution, so my resolution for this year would be.....blank..........

• shopping kot (i need to shop more...byk baju da worn out)
• spend less time worrying about Trex (well, its a long distance relationship, i hardly trust him before..=O)
• stop bugging Trex ( ya ya, i wont do that kind of "You better speed to Subang in a hour or u dont love me anymore" anymore...hak3..sorry, kesian kamu kan ade tunang super emo....=P)
• enjoy every second of my life ( kepada sesape yg sebaya saya, wuiihh, tahun ni kite da suku abad woitt )
• I want to learn to sayang Trex very much this year (bukan la x syg sebelum ni, cuma kalo gado asik nk menang jek..typical selfish,nk wat camno, disadvantage of being the youngest of 2,,so i`ll try to bertolak ansur this year....=) )

Bye bye 2010

Well,its the 2nd last day of 2010,,so byeeeee 2010,tq for such a memories,tq for the joyss and painss...I am soooo looking forward for next year..=)



.2009 eve.



Its been a month sayang...=)

For my super sweet, super sabar Trex,

Hey,its been a month sayang since the Big E Day...and I have nothing to say besides I LOVE U SO MUCH...=)..mmmuuuacchh..thank u for keeping up with me all these time, i know i gave u a big headache but u manage to hang on rite..keh3..thxxxxx,,really appreciate it..Altho we`re far apart but a lot has happened huh, once Perang Dingin until i surrender since SOMEBODY merajuk sampai demam2..(which is so sweet actually), lot of arguments regarding our tarikh nikah (hey,the lambat the better sayang, i dont mind waiting, ignore our parents k...=P), like u said, we better enjoy our singlehood while we can sebab after nikah we`ll be stuck together like a glue darl..so kalau ade org yg beria nak kawin cepat ke ape ke,dat is definitely NOT me..=)...and am I glad or wat to hear that u have the same thought..what`s the rush kan..=). Well yeah,, i`m sorry for a couple of things i have done to u in the past 1 month:

• Sorry I kept terrorizing ur space and privacy
• Sorry I have mulut laser (i can be cluesless sumtime, cakap x fikir habis)
• Sorry I asik ugut nak pulang cincin (which is ridiculous, i LOVEEEEE this cincin so much, still remember how I kept pleading u to buy this cincin instead of others?? Heck I xkan lepaskan this cincin for nothing...=P)
• and lastly sorry for being so emotional lately...ehemm,,biasa ar perempuan...=P

Thank you for all the sweetest thing u have done since we met:

• Thx you for not failing (not even once) to text me every nite and morning. U just proved to me, i am in ur mind before u go to sleep and after u wake up. Sweet sayang, I love it so much..=)
• Thx for rushing all the to Subang, everytime i need u, regardless of the time....I reallllllly aprreciate it so much...he3
• Thx for remembering our important dates
• Thx for wearing pink colour (altho u try to wear it as seldom as u can..well, i cant be satisfy enuf)
• Thx for making me chubby and penuh dgn lemak..kah3..i love it sayang, i loveeeee makan2 bersama kamu..=P
• Thx for all the love notes and kisses
• Thx for all the little teddy ( i dah xde tempat nak letak syg,jgn beli lagi )
• Thx for letting me spending ur money (OMG, i love it soooooo much..muacccchhhh)
• Thx for being by my side no matter what..(it feels good to have sumbody to lean on)
• Thx for being my bapuk aww aww (i love it everytime u do a catwalk for me...he3)
• and finally, thx so much for being my Sayang, u the greatest of all,...=D

My Aww Aww..=P





::Welcome 2011::

Year 2010 hampir menutup tirainya..and syukur alhamdulillah all my wishes for 2010 has been granted,,I got my degree this year, ..ntah menda2 ntah lagi yg len tu,,x igt da,,..tp yang penting my main wishes, I want my Trex for real da termakbul,,syukur alhamdulillah kot..=D..hopefully next year will be as merry as this year...ooh for next year all I ever wanted is to live happily by my Lemak Manis and family/friends...hopefully..=)

He loves me more than I do..(terharunyeee..huhhuu)

On the 10th day selepas ditunangkan, we had a very BIG fight..reason: ade la,hanya kami yg tahu...keh3(baik xyah ckp kan..)..we didnt talk for 4 days(the longest time we ever mogok) and i almost ingin memutuskan pertunangan kitaorg..tp sayang nk lepas my gojess cincin,,he3 (kerek je lebih)...so nk jadi crite on the 5th day, i msg him --> We need to talk. and he replied, Ok syg, sorry 2 3 hari ni xde mood, demam... perghhh,hati yg sekeras2 batu tadi trus cair bile dgr si die demam (kesiannye..huhuhu)..he didnt need to tell me how much he loves me and how important i am to him (xperlu la nak jiwang2 ke ape ke)..him body just showed it to me..he demam..=(...sebenarnye da lama kot benda ni,lately baru prasan, setiap kali perang ke mogok ke, mesti die yg sakit,,walhal aku, maintain beb.(siap bole kluar shopping lagik, jahat kan?)..back to the main point, ptg tu i called him, asking for his condition..ehem,ckp garang lagi time ni (ego...),
Me: Knape bole demam?
Him: Bcoz of u, u yg buat I...."
Me: U yg ego..
Him: U
Me: Keras kepala..
Him: U la..
(He sound so sad, i feel like i want to peluk him and tell him everything will be ok,huhuhu)
Bla bla bla.....still arguing who are the ego-est of all,then we hung up
---next few hours, I text him---
Me: I rindu tunang i yg ego dan keras kepala tu
Him: Igt i x rindu tunang i yg lagi super super ego dan super duper keras kepala tu?
(cehhh, do we have to go through this kind of argument everytime??)
---next few hours, he called me---

I cant remember the details, time ni baru la dpt bercakap heart to heart, cuma igt beberapa point yg buat saye sgtttt terharu..he was apologizing for his behaviour (sebenarnye bukan salah dia kot, i`m at fault too), then he said sumthing about how he was waiting for my text/call, and how it broke his heart when i never text/call, he was in tears till tertido..bile tersedar he check for his phone and kecewa xde any text or call from me..he said dlm tdo he dreamed of me,alone in the dark ntah kat mana2 ntah, crying..(which is amazing, I do cry for him in the dark in the middle of the nite,,Ya Allah, terpaku aku sekejap, betapa besarnya kasih dan syg die utk aku, die demam utk aku, menangis utk aku,,he can even feel wat i feel..masyaAllah, tak mungkin aku nak lepas lelaki ni..=) . I LOVE IT SO MUCH WHEN U CRY FOR ME SAYANG..=D...thank you sayang, terima kasih sgt1000x....bile die ckp camtu i just realized what an idiot i am, bole lak terpikir nak putus tunang..bodo la QILA kalo terlepas mamat ni..

Then lepas tu baru die cerita kenapa die keraskan hati xnak start msg dlu..ehem,,die kata bukan sebab ego ek,cuma nak test kekerasan hati dan tahap ke-egoan saye..(yer la tuhh), then he start mumbling about how he regret having this fight...to be continue in next post, keje byk daaaa.....=)

Weds anyone?

Its been a week since the BIG day..(almost la, since i know i wont be online on weekend, so better blogging skg kan)..So things are back to normal, xde lagi dah kawan2 yg kepoh2 sebab x invite them over for the big day (relak la weh, tunang je kot, wedding nnt aku jemput la )..AMANNNN,,,finally..so still not sure bout the tarikh for the big day,,parents: both mine and him wanted to melangsungkan pernikahan kami pada bulan JUN next year..me pulak, I wanted badly the wedding to be as lambat as possible..while for HIM, he dont mind, he`ll go with majority ---> such a lalang (i x kutuk u sayang..=P )...x diskus pon lagi, saje buat2 senyap,hopefully they`ll faham..i mean marriage is a big responsibility kot ...jaga diri sendiri pon x reti,ade hati nak jaga anak org kan,,so i amm sooooo not ready to get married....tp rasa mcm x bersyukur pulak,ade sesetengah org betol2 nak kawin tp x cukup bajet la, bf x ready la..ni terbalik pulak..sumpah,,mmg sgt bersyukur..tapi this is about responsibility and i am f**kingly not ready to be a wife. tp yg bestnye Trex bg buat preparation awal.yeayyyyyy...i likee..=), so tomorrow i`ll start with wedding ring hunting..yeayyyy..gedix gile kot...but i dont mind at all, its my wedding, its my fiance and its my money(well, its Trex actually..=P),,,moms and dads,,please please please postphone the wedding, i really wanted to have an end of the year wedding..best kott..instead of bln 6..puhleaaaazzzzzeeee......=P

Yeayyy, I`m a fiance....=)

Its almost3 days since the engagement, pergghhh wat a day and i love every second of it. =) =) =)..hugsssss and kissessss to those who made it happened....mum,dad,Qid...friends and family (u know who u are)...i LOVE u all, thxx for sharing the big moment wit me. Dengan dua cincin dan seutas rantai, saya telah dirisik, dipinang dan ditunangkan kepada MOHD FIRDAUS RADZI..yeayyyyy..I`m so happy.I had nothing to write here, so i guess i`ll let the pix do the talking...=) . On second thought let me cerite bout wat actually happen after the engagement.. So basically, after we`re officially engaged, Trex is both my bf and my fiance..ditto for him..so wat we do is, we both get carried away (in short jakun ..=P ) with the status..so he kept calling me Hi Tunang...and i replied sayang u so much Tunang...and dat short of thingies...which is short of jakun..hak3..wat to do..first time getting engage.(and i hope it will be the only one)..jakun but true,,and it still berlarutan till now..ha3..but I dont care..i`m happy and i have all i need by my side..my gebu, family and friendsss...there`s nothing else i can ask for...=)

p/s: On 3rd thought (ha3, theres no such thing, i made it up,sorry)...just browse my fb for the pix..wayyyy to busy to upload anything at the moment...