He loves me more than I do..(terharunyeee..huhhuu)

On the 10th day selepas ditunangkan, we had a very BIG fight..reason: ade la,hanya kami yg tahu...keh3(baik xyah ckp kan..)..we didnt talk for 4 days(the longest time we ever mogok) and i almost ingin memutuskan pertunangan kitaorg..tp sayang nk lepas my gojess cincin,,he3 (kerek je lebih)...so nk jadi crite on the 5th day, i msg him --> We need to talk. and he replied, Ok syg, sorry 2 3 hari ni xde mood, demam... perghhh,hati yg sekeras2 batu tadi trus cair bile dgr si die demam (kesiannye..huhuhu)..he didnt need to tell me how much he loves me and how important i am to him (xperlu la nak jiwang2 ke ape ke)..him body just showed it to me..he demam..=(...sebenarnye da lama kot benda ni,lately baru prasan, setiap kali perang ke mogok ke, mesti die yg sakit,,walhal aku, maintain beb.(siap bole kluar shopping lagik, jahat kan?)..back to the main point, ptg tu i called him, asking for his condition..ehem,ckp garang lagi time ni (ego...),
Me: Knape bole demam?
Him: Bcoz of u, u yg buat I...."
Me: U yg ego..
Him: U
Me: Keras kepala..
Him: U la..
(He sound so sad, i feel like i want to peluk him and tell him everything will be ok,huhuhu)
Bla bla bla.....still arguing who are the ego-est of all,then we hung up
---next few hours, I text him---
Me: I rindu tunang i yg ego dan keras kepala tu
Him: Igt i x rindu tunang i yg lagi super super ego dan super duper keras kepala tu?
(cehhh, do we have to go through this kind of argument everytime??)
---next few hours, he called me---

I cant remember the details, time ni baru la dpt bercakap heart to heart, cuma igt beberapa point yg buat saye sgtttt terharu..he was apologizing for his behaviour (sebenarnye bukan salah dia kot, i`m at fault too), then he said sumthing about how he was waiting for my text/call, and how it broke his heart when i never text/call, he was in tears till tertido..bile tersedar he check for his phone and kecewa xde any text or call from me..he said dlm tdo he dreamed of me,alone in the dark ntah kat mana2 ntah, crying..(which is amazing, I do cry for him in the dark in the middle of the nite,,Ya Allah, terpaku aku sekejap, betapa besarnya kasih dan syg die utk aku, die demam utk aku, menangis utk aku,,he can even feel wat i feel..masyaAllah, tak mungkin aku nak lepas lelaki ni..=) . I LOVE IT SO MUCH WHEN U CRY FOR ME SAYANG..=D...thank you sayang, terima kasih sgt1000x....bile die ckp camtu i just realized what an idiot i am, bole lak terpikir nak putus tunang..bodo la QILA kalo terlepas mamat ni..

Then lepas tu baru die cerita kenapa die keraskan hati xnak start msg dlu..ehem,,die kata bukan sebab ego ek,cuma nak test kekerasan hati dan tahap ke-egoan saye..(yer la tuhh), then he start mumbling about how he regret having this fight...to be continue in next post, keje byk daaaa.....=)

Weds anyone?

Its been a week since the BIG day..(almost la, since i know i wont be online on weekend, so better blogging skg kan)..So things are back to normal, xde lagi dah kawan2 yg kepoh2 sebab x invite them over for the big day (relak la weh, tunang je kot, wedding nnt aku jemput la )..AMANNNN,,,finally..so still not sure bout the tarikh for the big day,,parents: both mine and him wanted to melangsungkan pernikahan kami pada bulan JUN next year..me pulak, I wanted badly the wedding to be as lambat as possible..while for HIM, he dont mind, he`ll go with majority ---> such a lalang (i x kutuk u sayang..=P )...x diskus pon lagi, saje buat2 senyap,hopefully they`ll faham..i mean marriage is a big responsibility kot ...jaga diri sendiri pon x reti,ade hati nak jaga anak org kan,,so i amm sooooo not ready to get married....tp rasa mcm x bersyukur pulak,ade sesetengah org betol2 nak kawin tp x cukup bajet la, bf x ready la..ni terbalik pulak..sumpah,,mmg sgt bersyukur..tapi this is about responsibility and i am f**kingly not ready to be a wife. tp yg bestnye Trex bg buat preparation awal.yeayyyyyy...i likee..=), so tomorrow i`ll start with wedding ring hunting..yeayyyy..gedix gile kot...but i dont mind at all, its my wedding, its my fiance and its my money(well, its Trex actually..=P),,,moms and dads,,please please please postphone the wedding, i really wanted to have an end of the year wedding..best kott..instead of bln 6..puhleaaaazzzzzeeee......=P

Yeayyy, I`m a fiance....=)

Its almost3 days since the engagement, pergghhh wat a day and i love every second of it. =) =) =)..hugsssss and kissessss to those who made it happened....mum,dad,Qid...friends and family (u know who u are)...i LOVE u all, thxx for sharing the big moment wit me. Dengan dua cincin dan seutas rantai, saya telah dirisik, dipinang dan ditunangkan kepada MOHD FIRDAUS RADZI..yeayyyyy..I`m so happy.I had nothing to write here, so i guess i`ll let the pix do the talking...=) . On second thought let me cerite bout wat actually happen after the engagement.. So basically, after we`re officially engaged, Trex is both my bf and my fiance..ditto for him..so wat we do is, we both get carried away (in short jakun ..=P ) with the status..so he kept calling me Hi Tunang...and i replied sayang u so much Tunang...and dat short of thingies...which is short of jakun..hak3..wat to do..first time getting engage.(and i hope it will be the only one)..jakun but true,,and it still berlarutan till now..ha3..but I dont care..i`m happy and i have all i need by my side..my gebu, family and friendsss...there`s nothing else i can ask for...=)

p/s: On 3rd thought (ha3, theres no such thing, i made it up,sorry)...just browse my fb for the pix..wayyyy to busy to upload anything at the moment...

:Things to be done:

Ok..1 week and 6 days to go...syukur akhamdulillah byk benda da settle..

1. Cincin
2. My baju
3. His baju
4. Mak Andam - x finalize lagik, perlu ke make up ni?
5. Tukang Gubah Hantaran
6. Barang Hantaran
7. Bffs, check.. will be coming with their partners..altho` for Nar, I have no idea kat ceruk mana die, cant be able to contact him, so Nar, if u`re not flying, text me woii, i have big news!!...Teddy wont be coming ,banjirrrrr...huhuhu..
8. Bakery for cupcakes- suddenly MIA, a bit worried, so miss Helly, please text me ASAP, so we can finalize the cupcakes..
9. Tukang sarung cincin...hahaha..=P, hope she will likes me..=)
10. Tukang mengopakkan duit....always ready untuk mengbankrapkanTrex!...=D
11. Tukang keluar duit..(he will not be happy when all the bills sampai nnt..but i guess it doesnt matter kot..he`s in love wit me, i`m in love with him..thats all dat matters rite?)
12. Full time consultant, yeah my mom...(who else), seems like she`s not happy with the way i`m spending Trex money...dont worry mom,i`ll work harder next year and earn more money...=D ..Fikir2 balik, tak spend byk pon,maybe nampak byk sebab asik shopping,tp shopping benda2 kecik kot,(I put the blame onTrex , die yang super cerewet and kaki shopping,yeah he loves shopping more than I do...=P)..seriously mom..if calculate balik..mmg x spend byk..=)

p/s: For the fiancee/ bride to be, prepare awal weh, kalau x mmg x bole buat keje lain, risau memikirkan The Big day...tido pon asik nightmaressss je (seriously)..

Igtkan dlu nak buat as simple as can, tp bile da melibatkan byk hati, makin bertambah2 pulak..hmmmmm...baru tau susah rupanye nak mnjaga byk hati ni,,dan susahnye nak kumpulkan semua org kt satu tempat di masa yg sama....=|

Countdown to the BIG day!!!

Just 2 more weeks to the big day, byk lg kot x siap (kalut, kalut..huhuhu)....gubahan hantaran, his baju, photographer..(hmmm,xde la byk kot)...gubahan? hmmmm..my mum has been changing the mak andam since last week, so we havent decided yet nak guna sape to gubah my hantaran, (ours actually)...cepat la mum, i really dont care who did it, as long as u get it settle as fast as possible,,,(kepalaku da nak meletup nih, hantaran x siap lagik..!!!..huhuhuu)...Trex`s baju, we`ll get it by the end of this week, we opt for kemeja, no baju melayu please.--> my mum n his mum said macam nak nikah lak..hak3...(so hopefully we`ll get sumthing,  knowing that mamat gebu sgt cerewet..ha3, please syg, u better get ur shirt by this week or else i`ll turn to pink incredible hulk! Seriously, i mean it!!...xtau la, tp mcm i`m the only one yg kalut for this tunang thingy..Trex of course concentrating on his work, buat2 dont know, leaving everything to me..once in a while he will call me saying "cuak la sayang"...yea la tu, like i x cuak !!!..=D....x sabar nak tunggu 21/11/2010..I`m getting engage!!! yeayyyyy..=D Oh yeah, i still cant find henna design that i like, need to bagi to the mak andam by this week..huhuhuhu...so byk jugak la sebenarnye x settle lagi  ...=(

My Girl

"Hehehee.aku mmg da book diri sendiri dah nak g tunang ko makcik" --> aku sayang tuan punye msg ni, my besties (forever..he3)...the one yg suppper, i mean suppppppperr excited for me eventho kitaorg dah lama x jumpe, and i really didnt expect that from her, atleast not when we havent contact each other for the longest time ever..the way she was behaving made me realized i miss her more than anything..remember the time u`re there for my fyp and we`re hugging and screaming when i pass? omigoshh, i really miss u..kalau la ko ade depan mata aku weh, surely we`ll scream louder that dat kan bile Trex purpose..(neway he was crying like a baby weh, sure ko gelak sakan kalo ko ade, i am not sure tho' how Nyet will react..)...i really miss u weh,seriously..i miss everything,,kite kutuk ape je yg melintas depan mata sampai awal pagi, bake cupcakes sampai microwave ko terbakar (hak3..), window shopping and kutuk lagi, makan aym grg kt up10.....=D..lets do that again sumtime ...ko tau x, I AM SO EXCITED SEEING U`RE HAPPY FOR ME ( bangang punye ayat, i know..but u know me..hak3..)

When he says the magic words...ha3

Well its official now, i`m getting engage on 21st Nov 2010..I know its really around the corner..hak3..the very last minute keputusan (thxxx all the way to Trex mum, she`s the one too eager to have this engagement secepat mungkin)..=P..First time dgr Trex kata his mum suruh bertunang next month,mula2 mcm x nak kot..the very last minute weh,,(al maklum la, dlm kepala da fikir mcm2 nak buat tuk majlis pertunangagn..he3)...but then why not kan,..tp disebabkan ade lah "sumbody who`s going away for a moment"...and with his absence majlis pertunangan ni x kan berjalan,so terpaksa la..its now or never huh...hmmm..so cakap kat Trex.."Okeh,sett..bantai suda..kite buat sehabis baik,,eventho last minutes..yeayyyy!!!!..we`re getting engage in 3 more weeks....=P =P...

So last Sat, we`re looking for my cincin merisik and cincin tunang when he says the word that every girl wanted to hear --> "Just pick any ring u want, I dont mind the price..as long as u`re happy"..double yeayyyy!!!!..hehehee..so macam org gile la tarik die ke hulur ke hilir carik cincin..and finally selepas seharian mencari "D Ring" around 7.30pm kot...i`ve finally found the ring......and my god, he looks super lega kot (finally,jumpe pon cincin idaman,tak sia2 kaki penat berjalan)..=D so 3 three ring and 1 pendant all white gold (kureng skit ar nak pakai yellow gold or rose gold, eventho his mum prefer yellow gold..sorry future mummy mertua.I really cant see myself in yellow gold)..hu3...2 ring for me (cincin risik and cincin tunang), 1 cincin tunang for him and 1 pendant for me (he says its a token of love from him to me)..thxxxx cayang...i lapppp u so much..muuuacchhh..so basically its a happy weekend for me..on Suns, carik baju pulak..i tot nak carik baju kurung, nampak sopan skit kan..suddenly my mum have another idea, since xnak menghampakan hati die..so go along jer la..so pergi la kitaorg berdua merayau mencari  "D Dress" plak..kah3..mum & daughter time.carik2 then suddenly kat satu butik ni,terjumpa satu xtau nak panggil ape,,jubah + dress kot..super lawa, super sweet..pergghh,,trus cuba,muat la pulak..x pandang lain da..yeayyyy,i`ve found my baju tunang..so threre`s still a lot to do..hantaran + the foods,bla bla...i`m only excited in the ring + dress actually, the rest will leave it all to mum and t-rex....he3.... duhhh, aku nak tunang lg 3 minggu, ape nak buat masa tunang pon aku x tauu...=P